Current mood:	weird
Current music:	TV in the background
Entry tags:	stupid

untreated ADD == good times
It should be fairly obvious to anybody who knows me that I've got teh ADD something fierce. It's a struggle to sit through an hour long TV show, I'm constantly fidgeting, and when I'm around people, I tend to not say much of anything because I've got so many possible conversational directions playing out in my head that I freeze.

This will hopefully all be fixed at the end of October, when I see a neurologist who will finally, finally give me the meds I need to re-balance my brain.

Until then, however, I'm kinda skrood. Here's where I sorta get to the point:

For the past four days or so, I've been very fatigued. Yesterday when I woke up, my limbs were actually kinda rubbery, exactly like when you're on Xanax or Valium. Heidi suggested that my body was fighting off a bug, which made perfect sense to me, so I hopped myself up on cold pills, in an attempt to help my immune system nip that thing in the bud. A few hours later, Heidi and I notice that I had been uncharacteristically easy to hang with, all paying attention to TV shows and not fidgeting and generally being less annoying than usual. Of course, this is because of the pseudoephidrine in the cold pills. It's a stimulant that increases the dopamine levels in the brain, just like the usual ADD medications. Heidi looks at me and jokes, "Well, we could keep you hopped up on cold pills until you see the neurologist".

I, being an ass, took this comment seriously. All I have to do is munch cold pills for a month and I can keep myself focused and make my wife happier! I'd be happy! Productive! My life would change forever! So I got up this morning and swallowed 6 cold pills, and took 4 more over the course of an hour and a half, for a total of 300mg of pseudoephidrine in my system. This is a Good Thing, because it keeps me from spazzing. Unfortunately, cold pills also contain acetominephen and dextromethorphan. The acetominephen is harmless at the dosage I took, so that's ok. The dextromethorphan, on the other hand, had the truly bizarre side effect of making you trip like crazy if you take too much of it, which I believe is where I'm at now. 150 total milligrams of that stuff is more than enough to render one ever so slightly out of joint, and it's really unpleasant.

So, yeah. That was long. I suppose the moral of the story is to not be a jackass if you choose to self medicate.